12-4-1999 - 01-16-2012
called you the sweetest boy in the world
And to me you really were.
From the tip of your soft black tiny nose
to your handsome black and white fur.
loved to hold and pet you
youíre little face Iíd kiss.
But now that you are gone sweet Billy,
All of these things Iíll really miss.
when I look up in the sky
On the darkest ink black night
I wonder if thatís you I see
That star thatís shining so bright.
I think I hear you
And I turn my head to see
Is that you standing by your dish
or my imagination running free.
in the night I hear you
Tapping across the kitchen floor
I rise from my bed to let you out
But you are not waiting by the door.
in case you come to me
On angel doggy wings,
Iíve left your dish filled with treats
and all youíre favorite things.
you hear me whisper in your ear
As your final breath you took
ďGo find daddy Billy dearĒ
youíll see him if you look.
of these days Iíll see you both
And what a joy that will be
All of my family together again
And your daddy, and you, and me.
Charlotte Anselmo ~
all think our pets are special and I've had many very
special pets in my
life. But my little Billy was very special. He had many
health problems in his
life but he had such heart! He took it all in stride and
never for a moment
did he give up on anything. He would play and
play! He had to have surgery on
both back "knees" so at times I would call him
my 3 legged dog when he
would just carry one leg up high. But it never slowed
stopped him from catching a frisbee in mid air!
lived in Arizona when we got Billy and he was the apple
of his daddy's eye!
When my husband (Billy's daddy, Johnny) got sick and had
to be in the hospital,
I would come home at night and while Billy was thrilled
to see me he would sit and
wait by the door for his daddy.
When Johnny passed I always thought Billy sensed
For many days I just sat in Johnny's chair and
Billy would not leave my side, he sat on my lap and
licked every tear away.
That sweet little dog kept me going and kept me sane. I
began to form the
strongest bond with an animal I have ever had. We
grieved together and we
became inseparable. He was just 3 years old when Johnny
passed and for the
next 9 years Billy was my best friend, my baby and my
he was 8 years old he was diagnosed with hyper-thyroidism
Two insulin shots every day and pills. He dealt with it
like he did everything.
Got his shot, took his medicine and headed for his toys!
He loved to play and had so many little toys, each time
he got a new one
I would name it and he learned them all. I'd tell him go
get your lion and he would
throw toys out of his basket until he had that lion. He
was very smart!
If someone brought him a toy he would not only remember
which toy but
who gave it to him. When they would stop by he would
that basket until he found the toy they had given him.
made me laugh at his antics.
then Billy was diagnosed with congestive heart failure.
but I needed to keep him going so we did everything
possible for him.
He no longer played as much but he would go to his toy
move things around a bit. At times he would seem like
his old self and
play hard for a few minutes.
a few months before he passed he went blind. He took it
and knew his way through the house, he could find his
bed and toy basket
without help. He opened his own Christmas presents and
as blind and as
sick as he was he had a grand time. The next two weeks
downhill quickly until I knew I could not let him suffer
He had very suddenly developed an open sore on his back
and a large swelling.
He had trouble controlling his bowels and walking was
hard for him.
could see the pain in his eyes and so I made the hardest
decision of my life.
We had to say good bye. I took him to my vet and held
him while they
very gently put him to sleep. As he took his last few
breaths I whispered
in his ear, "run Billy, go find your daddy, he is
waiting for you!"
tears flowing I tucked him in his blanket and put his
favorite stuffed toy
between his front legs. His frisbee went with him too.
He would need that when he got to heaven! I am lost
without him and he will
always be in my heart right beside Johnny.
thought......I don't believe there is a "doggy
I believe there is just one heaven for all of God's
that we can all be together again.